Xmas

When the difficult times come to us, i know we have to look for a good things from that situation. At least we learn something from our mistakes. But what if it is not only a mistake but a big failure? What should i do? i need some time to restore my almost everythings. And i know i can't do this alone, and need someone to carry me on till i stand on my feet again. Thought that she's the one, but she's far away from me. i just want to be with her (i mean her) for this xmas. but don't know who she exactly is. It's bad :-.(